Okay, so we have been living here for a few months now and I do not understand all the hype about this place. I am missing the convience of living so close to my family, especially when I really need some entertainment ideas for Oz. On top of that I think that I am having some problems with depression. I can't seem to get motivated and focused. I believe that this stems from the fact that we have been trying for another baby with no luck for almost a year. I don't want to tell any of my family about this because I don't want anyone getting their hopes up especially my own. Each month we try and at the end of each month that big red X on the calendar calls me a failure. I am starting to believe that I was only meant to have one. It is a little disappointing since I feel so out numbered. My husband tries to make me feel better by telling me about all the accomplishments that I have made in my life but I still feel the failure. I really don't want to say that I'm calling it quits but it looks that way.
